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DARKVAMPIRE92588
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Name: MERLWYNN
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Birthday: 9/25/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: drawing,cooking,writing vampire stories.
Expertise: biting. goofing off with friends and being a twinkie whore
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  DARKVAMPIRE92588
Member Since:
1/23/2004
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| ok so life is funny.... i went to hall with andi and i found out that... i kinda liked it and i was like wow it is all there, andi knows her shit and i kinda felt dumb at first being shown off to her friends but as i got comfy i was like i like it here its kinda warm and cozy.... lets not tell andi cuz she would get a big head and stuff but idk. joo and stuff r like... well u believe in somethign at lest its better then nothing, and then i got andi who thinks im fighting with her cuz of all of that but idk what was wrong with me but out of no where i was just like kiss my ass freaked out on her and.... she got on the phone with ty... wow i guess it was a needed break cuz i sat around and cleaned i have no fucking heat n im going nuts lol idk whats wrong with me but i dont like it cuz i have been pushing everyone away, andi is kicking my ass screaming how dum i am but w/e shes right. so andi got back on the phone and we went at it back and forth for while seeing what was wrong with me and finally i broke down and told her... i am tired of seeing her in tears over me im tired of hurting the ones i love cuz i cant handle my life anymore.... it just hurts. | | |
| today i sat here in school and stared out the window none stop... i just couldnt fouces... im so paniced about life its not funny... life isnt funny... i cleaned my room today n found some old letters from andi and i just stared at it and had to laugh. when shane was trying to get with her i paniced and freaked out and said shit i should have kept to myself... im seeing now i am doing the same thing with tyler... but at lest shane had some respect for me to back off. god i cant think of anyone else but andi right now... my heads spinning n the whole nine yards. i havent eaten in like 2 days lol im done being fat n lazy... well computer time is ok i guess but i see everyone and they have so much better bodies then me... andi is always trying to get thinner but i just sit there n make remarks when i do nothing to better my self. well i get to talk to andi in like 5 mins hopfully i get to fix this.... i really cant live with losing her again | | |
| u know i realized after sitting here going though some peoples profiles that i missed out and i regret that... i have always lived my life to the fullest and rocked out with my cock out yeah i tried the no sex thing... yeah that lasted long..... now im laying here n realizing i hate this place i hate the people here i want gone.... a good friend told me a long time ago that the path we walk is the path we distroy... to bad she was drunk... i think she had something going.... someone that i love more then life its self said to me the other day.... when i push the little button n everyone else goes away will u be here? all i could say is id be the one pushing the button with u... i think about that and think wow.... i am a fuck up. i mean come on i ran i came back and i am distrying everything around me because im scared.... i need to fix that and some other things really soon or ill be dead before i can get out of this town n i mean that. this goes to Andi.... i dont even know if ur going to get this nor do i mind right now... i hate tyler i wasnt close to him in school i treated him with respect n i thought it would rub off n maybe hed think that too but no i hurt u by telling him things i shouldnt have even of muttered.... now ur probly laying there with him talking about how i pissed u off n if i still know how u get when u get mad u dont hold back.... so boom my darkest fears r staring me in the face... but who know ill give u trust... the thing i give everyone.... i just beg dont u hurt me too. u are someone i know ill have to look in the face for at lest the next 18 years... lol but will we make it? i dont know but its worth all the risks... do i babble to people i shouldnt yes i know im a dumb ass for it.... do i fuck everything up... well yeah but we always seem to work though it so it must mean something. i love u babe. britners... well i know u dont read this no more but just in case... fuck you.... u think ur hot shit n i found out tonight that u where the only thing keeping me the way i was the hope of crawling back to u... fuck u. i dont need you or ur guilt. vota darling babe.... im happy for u n dylan i know we had our fights but w/e life is a battle u need to fight for. anyone else.... in the words of life.... fuck it | | |
| wow its been way to long since ive used this . almost a whole year well im a daddy n a fuck up... nothing ever had to do with the girls everyone thought i loved it no one even knew how i felt... andie was n is the only thing yes i looked yes i dated but ive lost more with her then urd ever no | | |
| yeah.... i have become a monk and yeah... fuck people u all fucking suck and yeah... i hope most of u choke on dick........... | | |
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